After a whole quarter of feeling WAY too detached from my college experience and like I've hardly done any work at all, why do finals have to come so harshly and suddenly like they always do?
I have feelings of dread I can't shake. Not only concerning finals, but in other places of my life. I have these looming paranoid feelings that I'm going to get fired from my job at Pedicab. I know it's probably an irrational fear since I've only worked two shifts, but I can't get the picture out of my head of me messing something up so bad that they fire me on the spot. I don't think I could handle that helpless feeling.
I'm worried that I won't be able to pull of everything I need to for finals. I already feel I've failed by not doing enough work at this point in the game. Are all of these thoughts I'm having real, or are they just paranoid delusions I'm creating? Am I making the delusions real by fixating on them? Maybe the best thing for me right now is not to think, and just do.
I'll contemplate it more while in my dreadful World Masterpieces class....
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